it is SO good to be home. better than i ever thought. i can't believe how many AMAZING people are here. my friends and my family, oh my gosh, they are just the greatest. when i'm home i feel fully wrapped up in a circle of love and positivity. and, the lifestyle of not having to work, man, i could get used to it! not that i don't love my work and purusha (i've still been working on other purusha things!); but days spent taking fun classes at the gym with my mom, going to some thrift stores, cooking delicious foods, reading a good novel, they are what joy is made of!
and yesterday we had christmas!!! it felt just like christmas! nice breakfast, exchanged gifts slowly. my parents so generously gave me such thoughtful, timeless gifts. some highlights : small pink pearl earrings, a seafoam lace dress, a canon 60D!!!!, the most beautiful purse from bali ELF on etsy, herkimer diamond earrings from gather jewelry on etsy, and other small sentiments. i am SO SO lucky! ahhhh!!!!!
when i get back to california i know i will feel totally refreshed and renewed. i've decided i'm going to come visit connecticut once every 3 months, for every season. why not?! the flight is not that bad, and i need to have this time to reconnect with people who have known me my whole life. i know as i spend more time in cali i will develop deeper bonds with people, but there is nothing like going back to your roots.
i'm here until thursday morning, so today i'm gonna keep on living it up! namaste!
the dull, the difficult, the tiresome... the joyous, the exciting, and the bliss filled.
everyday is a chance to practice showing up for all the equally important moments. there are no moments that don't matter. i want to be here to experience the depth of the emotions as they come and go. fully and richly.
rich. this word has become a mantra for me. when i look back at my life, i want to think, rich. and i mean rich as in totally full and whole, deep and examined, immense and evolutionary.
this afternoon patrick, liam, and i planted our christmas tree mickey. isn't he cute?! i was kinda sad to see our little tree go, but seeing him outside amongst all his tree friends made me feel a lot better. i mean what a great life right?! mickey was loved and doted on as our baby christmas tree, and now he will grow with love from the sun and the fresh air in topanga. he's all grown up, he's free!
mickey's an italian stone pine, so in about 5-10 years, he might look something like this :
you guys, it's time to meet nayda. she's the BEST.
nadya now sews all the pants in the shop, as well as about 50% of the tops. she is sooo talented {and sweet, loving, hilariously funny}. i'm beyond lucky to have her on the purusha team! purusha pants are made with either high performance nylon spandex or super high quality thicker than before cotton lycra. our pants will now last sooo much longer and stay the same after many many washings. not to mention the seamstress work is perfection. and, added bonus, clothes are made with heart, by women that are really passionate about our work. i believe clothing made in sweatshops contains a sad energy that does transfer to the wearer. why not wear clothing that's been made with love, so that we may live a more blissed love filled life?!
i updated the 'about' section of my website with a little more info about me, nayda, and purusha. see it here ---> meet the makers.
this year has been really equally challenging and rewarding. a lot of shit happened, a lot of exciting stuff happened, i moved cross country, baby purusha is beginning to walk... my internal quest to love myself has deepened, yet i am still 100% aware that there will always be more to learn and more space to grow. the journey never stops!
last night i really hurt my shoulder doing push-ups. so this morning i had kind of a really nice mellow yoga practice and meditation, though slightly painful in certain positions! ouch! really makes you appreciate your usual lack of pain.
anyways, i made some resolutions, i put my intentions for 2013 out into the atmosphere. 2013 has the potential to hold all my dreams in its hands if i put my half of the work in. the universe, luck, time, love... these pieces make up the other half.
here are my promises for 2013:
1. more gratitude. whenever i feel a little down, insecure, afraid... i just remember how much goodness i have. my boys, my happy home, my health, my family. it's more than enough.
2. more laughter. stressful times, scary experiences, intimidating scenarios call for silliness. just laugh it off. life is like a lucid dream. i can decide to make fun of a situation and let it go.
3. more harmony. to me, this equals a rich life. balancing out work and play, friends and alone time, sweets and healthy food, time on the internet and time away from the cyber world. just seeking out the middle ground constantly and finding peace there.
4. more going after. just going for it, go get it hayley. opportunities and success are here now waiting for me if only i find the courage to try. in 2013 i want more going after all that gives me that heart thumping/should i or shouldn't i?!/this is scary!! feeling. it is so worth it.
5. more healthy foods. the past few nights i've had dreams about animals. i dreamt i was hiking with a pack of wild dogs last night. another dream last night was all my teeth were loose and falling out one by one. the night before i dreamt i caught a fish and cut its head off and ate it. i felt sad for the fish, but i could go through with the death so i have life process. i've made the decision to return to vegetarianism. i've already been back for the past week or so, and i feel really secure about it. no more guilty feelings. 2013 i'd like to continue eating plenty of vegetables, fish, fruits, and a little chocolate here and there (ok, let me be serious, a lot of chocolate. lol).
and that's it. i've sent these intentions out into the world, and i'm ready to work for them.
i've been digging this song. i pretend norah is singing these words to me :
happy new year to you my beloved reader! thank you with all my heart for taking the time to check out my posts in 2012. i am so grateful. may your last evening of 2012 wrap up all your successes and happiness and carry them tenfold into 2013. namaste.
this time last week we were living it up!! aw, looking at these photos, i miss being on vacation! last week patrick, liam, and i all traveled up to yountville, near napa, and to the muir woods. it was heaven! we stayed at the sweetest little b & b that left treats out for liam, and had a giant outdoor bathtub and a fireplace! just down the road were wine tastings galore and the best french restaurant we've ever been to. and we visited the magical muir woods, hugged trees and inhaled the woody healing energy. i didn't want our trip to ever end... we came home though with some pretty awesome wines from napa and sonoma, and plenty of warm memories to fill my heart until we can go back again.
