summer solstice today is pretty much the most beautiful day of the year in collinsville, connecticut. i am worshipping the sun (in moderation of course) today; as well as yoga-ing, swimming, screen printing, and going on a bike ride! i genuinely love my life right now. i love this very moment, but i also love losing myself in dreams of what i imagine my future to be. me working in my lil room in a bit of sunshine :) burning a screen thoughts of mine today: one has gotta put the hours in, the hard work. my work, i am finding, is what keeps me satisfied. i resist it at first because of some fading unworkable thought patterns i've developed over some lazy years. i am beginning to feel joy at working more hours on purusha than i thought i'd ever want to. i mean, why not?! i am here living on this earth, why live without the things and the dreams i really want?! i have been dealt a pretty good hand to start, so i should use this to my advantage- and spring board from some of this good luck! summer sun life is but a dream.
my yoga room i have been sooo busy with late summer/autumn designs for purusha (they'll be posted in a few short weeks!), a collection for drishti santa barbara, and on a new purusha website... but i always make time for my yoga :) it's all about balance! i thought i'd share with you my lil yoga space ! the door leads within you 3rd floor room, complete with a 4 sided inversion wall (enclosed chimney hehe) i even have a sunlit view where it all begins- the mat <3 today i'm dying and screenprinting all day- what fun! i'm gonna get some photos up of me in the process ! xoxo
cute tee sometimes i am just so anxious for purusha to grow! i know it takes time to build a business, but i'm eager for it to develop into what i imagine! once i have more startup money i look forward to using only organic cottons, hemp, modal blends, etc. i'm not normally a huge 'be present' yoga clothing fan, but i gotta say i love this hemp cross back tee. i'd love to carry something like it, with a purusha twist of course, in the future. --> hemp wrap tee by be present
my practice i've been practicing yoga for about 9 years, off and on. it's never been a really consistent thing for me until just recently. and now that it is, i can't believe i've waited so long to take the plunge! over the years i've been practicing, sometimes i went through phases where i practiced 4 days a week, then got caught up in other things and practiced around once a week, if even. practicing this way does not lead to much advancement in yoga, i can tell you this! i'm learning that with yoga, like any discipline, consistency and dedication are the keys to success. there's this little 3rd floor room in my house i've turned into a homey yoga space for myself. i've been so happy to find that my morning practice is the highlight of my entire day. :) taking a moment to be alone, breath, and slow down before the day speeds up is so critical for me. after my practice i approach my day with much more patience, less anxiety, and a focus for what i want to achieve. trying more difficult poses is also very very exciting! i know advancing in yoga (in certain poses especially) can be slow, but i am already noticing an improved strength and confidence within me! when i can accomplish something scary and difficult in exercise, i feel much more ready to take on the daunting events in my everyday life. plus, i'm getting flooded with serotonin and endorphins- can't hurt! i got certified to teach yoga back in 2006 at yandara yoga institute in todos santos, baja, mexico. i had a very interesting experience there, but when i was finished i felt pretty turned off from yoga. i learned a lot about iyengar style yoga and now know how to correctly position my body in most postures. but, i also learned way too much about yoga 'mysticism', i like to call it. as soon as yoga becomes some sort of magic that people subconsciously consider themselves 'better' than others to 'learn', well i just kinda shut down to it. i am very anti-religion, as many of my friends know, and i don't want my yoga practice to resemble any sort of fabricated religious experience. it is what it is- a series of exercises centered around the breath. anyone can do it and advance in it with dedication. yandara had a lot of amazing teachers, but i really wish we had spent more time on the science of yoga and on the human anatomy. much time was spent on 'rebirth' ceremonies, chanting to indian gods, and satya 'truth telling' (talking about something painful in your life in front of strangers and crying, basically). i know a lot of other students there agreed with me that we didn't sign up for psychotherapy conducted by uncertified 'doctors'. gazing into a group of strangers' eyes after breathing in a way to flood the body with oxygen for 45 minutes doesn't make me feel more connected to anyone, it just makes me feel insane. i know i'm not the only one that gets fed up with some of the bs that comes along with yoga... so yeah, i left yandara thinking- i don't want to be apart of yoga... and what is yoga anyways? i've been searching for my own definition for the past 4 years to find that is can be whatever i want it to be. and for me, yoga is exercise. pretty much any discipline can be yoga- music, running, biking, art, science. so why do the asanas?? if yoga is discipline to exist in the moment in whatever practice, why do the poses? this is what i want to be able to explain when i start teaching. my boyfriend patrick is becoming my first student. he, like many men, has been very reluctant to try any poses. and i totally get it, yoga has become very feminized and sometimes just appears downright silly. i dug up one of my books i bought to study at yandara (which we never even picked up, go figure)- 'anatomy of hatha yoga'. it's definitely a tough read, but i am determined to be able to explain to others simply why asanas are good for the body, and exactly what's going on in the body when you practice. no more chakra and prana bull, i really think those terms almost cheapen the practice. plus i would feel like i was lying to my students if i told them these magical terms that have no scientific grounding. i just want to be real with yoga. and i want to teach with a real wealth of knowledge of the human body. i turned 27 yesterday on june 7th, and this year already looks pretty bright! i can't wait to see where purusha, my own practice, and teaching take me! poised on pigeon on my birthday :)