my pregnancy journal : 1

Hey! It's me! Hayley ;) Plus... a baby! Hooray!

I thought it would be fun to document my pregnancy for my family, friends, myself, and for my future baby. It's such a special time, and I really am trying to cherish it. I'm going to follow a format that some bloggers do :) :

How far along? 

14 weeks yesterday!

How big is the peanut?

I've heard the size of a peach? Or apple? Our ultrasound said about 4 inches.

Total weight gain/loss? 

Last doctor's appointment at 11 or so weeks I gained 6 lbs. This is a struggle for me. I love my baby already of course, but I can't help but wonder if it's too early to gain weight. Early pregnancy is hard because I don't quite look 'cute' and big, but just a little chubby. Haha! I know every woman is different and I'm really trying to let go and trust my body.

Maternity clothes? 

Well I just realized looking at photos of myself sitting down in my yoga pants above that I am seriously muffin topping at this point. It's hard/weird to buy clothes that you know are temporary, but I can see soon I won't have a choice. My jeans still go on but they're pretttty uncomfortable!

Sleep?

I'm letting myself sleep as much as I want. At least 8 hours a night. I know in the future I won't have this luxury so I'm trying to live it up! My sleep is really good right now. Also, I'm not working quite as much. Really trying to be gentle with myself and listen to my body.

Best moment this week? 

Definitely definitely getting my ultrasound and blood test for genetic abnormalities and it coming back with very low numbers! And as always seeing my sweet little dude moving around and hearing it's heartbeat during the ultrasound. It always makes me cry. :)

Symptoms? 

Well I have a stomachache right now. I still have a funny appetite where certain foods gross me out (vegetable and chicken- yuck), but I am SO much better than I was a few weeks ago! Good lord! I miss being really hungry though. 

Food cravings? 

I wish! I can't wait for that!!! I want to want food so badly!

Food aversions? 

Salad, chicken, certain types of beef.

Gender? 

Ultrasound doctor said 99% sure it's a boy! I'm really excited, we wanted a boy. BUT there's always the chance he could have been wrong. We'll hopefully have a 100% in a few weeks.

Labor signs? 

Labor seems so so far away right now. I can't even get my head into that space, ya know?

Belly button in or out? 

In.

What I miss?

For sure a glass of wine. And passion for food. Fitting into my clothes. Pushing myself in my workouts.

What I'm looking forward to? 

Sometimes I am so overwhelmed with my desire to meet our little guy! I know pregnancy is a wonderful time of life, especially the first time, so I am trying to soak it up. But I just want whatever brings me closer to meeting him. Really excited to feel some kicks! I keep trying to focus on feeling them, because they're happening already, but it's so hard to know what it feels like when I've never felt them before. Also can't wait to see what a great Dad Patrick is going to be. ;)

Milestones? 

Hmmm it still feels so early on that I don't know if I've had anyway. I feel like it's a milestone that we got pregnant quickly and the baby is healthy at every checkup! It feels like a miracle. Patrick and I keep joking they'll do the ultrasound and be like... There's nothing in there. This whole thing's a sham. Or something. It's just incredible this baby is growing and doing everything it's supposed to do! 

Bump?

I have one! But like I said, it still looks like I'm just fat. I can't wear tight tops anymore because it looks like I have a weird big gut, and when I wear loose clothes you can't tell I'm pregnant at all. I'm looking forward to having a bigger bump! Patrick is too! It's so neat to see your body change. 

I'm not sure I'll answer these questions every pregnancy post, but it's good for now! I also want to add what my baby boy (I think!) is doing to me mentally. Here's his latest photo:

He's helping me to see the big picture in life, something I struggle with. He's helping me to stay calm and peaceful (cortisol does cross over from the mama to the baby! So crazy!), and prioritize my life. I obviously want to be a good role model to our guy, so I really want to continue to notice and eliminate bad habits. I didn't want to be the kind of parent that is obsessed with her kid, but I might be. Haha! I don't know, but I just really love him already. I think he's the cutest little guy I've ever seen. I can't wait to see who this little person will be. 

Alright that's it for now! Feeling so much love all around! XO!