monday meditation.


"if you don't like something, change it.  if you can't change it, change your attitude."
~maya angelou

this is what i am telling myself today, as we somehow now have a rainy season in connecticut.  seriously the sun has been MIA for over a week and it is getting old!  i understand though i have to find that lightness within myself during these dark times, and remember that it is only weather outside my window.  nothing changes because the sun is out, i am still the same person, blue skies or grey.  

it is funny as humans how much we talk about weather and depend upon the weather for happiness (at least i do).  it is beautiful how simple our needs are, and we forget this when we complicate our lives with all the madness we have to do everyday to make it in the world.  but we basically want and need all the same basic things- warmth, sunshine, healthy food, a bit o exercise and fun, and lots of love.  

today i am changing my attitude.  when things look dark and grey, there surely has to be light and colors elsewhere.  i am finding brightness in a hug from a friend, in a run with my boy liam in the misty rain, in screen prints and art, in a backbend yoga pose, in the scent of sage burning in my house right now...

our minds are so powerful, and we can decide to live free or live in prison, and change this perception from moment to moment, breath to breath.  

so today, just breathe.  let your life be uncomplicated and your needs for happiness be simple.  c'mon, it's easy! 

sending you sunshine from my heart to yours.  i love you.  

the universe seems neither benign nor hostile, merely indifferent.

~carl sagan

for some reason, i find this comforting.  good and bad really only exist in our minds, and we are totally capable of choosing which reality to go by. 

no, i don't think the universe is some kind of all knowing benevolent thing, and i don't believe there is a god.  in the same respect, there is nothing evil or hateful.  

all we have is time, and our chance to try to do something good while we're here for a few seconds.  what supports the universe, i think, is to sustain it.  to love all that we have, build and create more goodness and love, and share that goodness with the future cosmo-politans (thanks for this sweet term amanda!) is our sole obligation.

so will the world end tomorrow, on may 21st?  i doubt it, but we really should be living it up every moment, breathing deep and laughing and loving,  like it will.  everything on earth is going to die, we all have a terminal illness.  

so we're here today, let's simply live.  to be alive is SO incredible and lucky, what more do we need?

nothing is perfect, everything is temporary, and today the sun is shining (hehe kinda).  fortune and misfortune will persist in my life, but today i feel happy and i see the universe as beautiful. :) 

have such an awesome weekend my dears!

how do i wear my purusha?
(and some exciting news, and a little synergy designs shout out!)

hello honeys.  well, it's another rainy day in connecticut.  i think we're on day 6 of rain?  ughhh...  

sun, i love you.  please come back to me, i will dance and drink in your shines!

SO, in the photo above and below i am wearing some beautiful earrings made by synergy designs.

me and my friend cristine at synergy did a little trade- i made her some pants and she made me a beautiful custom made necklace and a pair of amber bead earrings!  i'm not usually a big jewelry person, because i just never end up wearing it!; but these jewels feel so natural and look gorgeous without being too much.  

you know what i mean ;)  aren't they so pretty?

and cristine made me the necklace i've been dreaming of- a simple gold ring on an amber beaded chain, a reminder of eternity and the cycles of life.  I LOVE IT!  been wearing it every day! :)

what else... these pants above!  do you like them?  i'm thinking of selling some like them in my purusha shop, but they are wee bit expensive for me to get (so kinda expensive to sell- they're modal, high quality, and made in the usa.) i love them and feel kinda, hehe hot, in them ;).

they are soo soft and have an extra wide waistband you can fold down like a skirt.  pretty!

here i'm wearing an old h & m cardigan i screen printed 'nirvana nirodhah' , or heaven and enlightenment, on the right shoulder.  get your own here!

AND some awesome news i want to share with you all!

starting next wednesday, every wednesday, i'll be doing a purusha giveaway!!!  

what?!  don't know why i didn't think of this sooner!  i love sharing my clothing with people that love wearing it!  so i am honored and grateful to give one free item to a winner drawn at random once a week!  

all you have to do next weds is 'like' purusha people on facebook, follow purusha on twitter, and write a comment on the giveaway post.  i'll re-explain it all next week, don't worry!

next wednesday i'll be giving away these pants:

all you need is love yoga pants

yay!  i am excited to show my love for my purusha people :).

talk soon :)  xoxo.

one of a kind tuesday!


hello there!

today's one of a kind item in the beautiful athena dress!  

inspired by greek artwork, this design originates from 475 BC!

i have this dress myself and adore it; perhaps if this winter ever ends i'll actually get to wear it without a sweater and leggings!  hmmmpffff this weather is making me a little crazy..... rain for days and days... 

my gorgeous best bud colleen rocks this dress, and you can too!

at least the rain is very encouraging for staying in and getting creative, and also for getting introspective.  i have been doing a lot of crafting and self analysis.... but my insides are really longing for some outside stimulation- eh hem- SUNSHINE!!  i need that sun bad, but i suppose i will have to wait a few more days.

hope you are finding nice things to do during this drear!  

sending you love and sunlight that comes from within!

monday meditation.


"as we willingly enter each place of fear, each place of deficiency and insecurity in ourselves, we will discover that its walls are made of untruths, of old images of ourselves, of ancient fears, of false ideas of what is pure and what is not."
~jack kornfield

my man keeps me laughing, that's for sure!

(i call these pants his teddy bear pants- aww!)

good evening my loves!


the past week has had me thinking a lot about my thoughts- especially the fears and limitations i tell myself on a daily basis.


i have come so far in the awareness of my mind, but ah ha, i can't forget that life is a journey indeed.  i will never reach that point where i am done growing and there's just nothing more to learn.  i am still an infant in the scheme of time, and i still have little demons that haunt me when i'm feeling low. 


luckily, i have time and my own consciousness of my side.  i have the time to look through the cobwebs of my thoughts and decide which thoughts are helping and true, and which thoughts are harmful and old misconceptions about myself.  


this is not easy by any means.  slowing down and watching for what just snapped me into a fearful mood?!  this is tough!!  it requires my full attention, my utmost patience, and my entire body and mind to sync up.


my brain still has some swapped wires, and some wires that just shouldn't be there at all.  i've written about this fearful thought topic before; and i honestly thought my fear had left me, but it still comes up at times when i feel weak and vulnerable.  


i am really lucky i have a good support system.  i am so thankful for my friends and loves.  they are what help me to expose myself, to show what i think is ugly about myself so i can get to the root of the problem.


this past weekend was patrick's birthday, and i just wanted to share with you how being in a relationship, and having friendships is so freakin' awesome.  yes, relationships are work and never ever perfect, but good things require work of course.

hehe i made patrick 26 carrot cake mini cupcakes on his day!

we were laughing because he was like, 'you made them mini so we could eat a bunch and not feel like we ate a lot of cake!'

a loving accepting mate or friend helps me to reveal my biggest fears, the dumb things i tell myself about myself, the thoughts that clutter my mind one hundred times a day, my biggest secrets i wouldn't tell anyone for fear of being rejected.  once these little gremlins surface, i can find the eggs they sprout from... they are from the simplest yet most difficult places- from the daily mantras i speak to my heart, and have been speaking for the past 28 years.

i think about a lot of stuff on the daily, and i feel like 50% of those thoughts are sweet- planning for my future, being in the moment and breathing, imagining art and purusha ideas, enjoying my love for people and the earth. 


but i still obviously have plenty of work to do because 50% of my thoughts are toxic- worrying if i will be accepted or loved, doubting my ability to lead, worrying someone i love will die, dreading work. i want to feel 100% good, and right now i should!  i have a beautiful life and so much ahead of me, and i know i will feel best if my thoughts are accounted for.  


another thing patrick reminded me of is this- my negative thoughts are LIES and cruel to tell myself.  pat compared these negative thoughts to cutting myself- they are that destructive to my being.  would i ever tell someone else they are ugly, or not good enough, or lazy? NEVER- so why would i say this to myself??  mental abuse is powerful powerful stuff that i didn't even realize was effecting me so much.


so really, i suppose the point of this post is, to let your guard down with people you love and you won't have to ever face fear all alone.  don't be afraid to be honest and real, and express your thoughts to someone, no matter how untrue or ridiculous those thoughts are!  we are all here to support each other and to be the optimist when the other can only see pessimism.  we have so much power to affect each other in a loving and accepting way.  i really believe this is why we are here, and have conscious minds and relationships with other conscious minds- to realize the potential of our own love to change the world. 


by looking into my weaknesses, into the triggers that upset me, i am finding healing through self love.  we really must fight back with love.  when a negative thought arises, i am saying NO!  no, you cannot take away this love i have for myself and for this moment, and i refuse to let you color my reality. 


what would my life be like if i didn't have a thought of fear, or distress, or worry, or dread?  probably pretty fucking good, and i am positive i'd like to find out!


i thank you from the bottom of my heart for your love and support.  i need all the love i can get <3 thank you so much for being courageous beings and sharing your love with me.  namaste.

happy friday!

good day good people!

ah i'm sad- i don't know where my last 2 blog posts went?!  i think blogger is having some issues right now... hopefully they will be recovered!  i really liked the photos in both!

anyways, here are some more fun photos!  today i am listing some slightly imperfect purusha items- purusha seconds i call them.  i offer up some slightly funky items for super low prices!  enjoy :)

purusha seconds frank lloyd wright t-shirt

purusha seconds just say YES! t-shirt

i must go now, and hurry!  i have much to do this afternoon in preparation for my man's birthday tomorrow!  sweet baby pat turns 26 :)! 

i don't think he reads my blog too much, so i can tell you my plans!

i'm making my partner patrick his favorite breakfast in bed- bacon and eggs on a bagel with a smoothie and tea!, i am giving him a 2 hour massage (yes 2 hour, because i still owe him a 1 hour massage from christmas! eeehhh!), not sure yet what's going on during the day, and lastly i'm taking him to dinner at barcelona in west hartford- one of our favorite places we don't get to go to too often :).  i'm excited!  

also tonight i'm making patrick a t-shirt with the actual handwritten music notes on it by chopin :)  i hope it turns out ok!  hhmmm what else- oh yeah i'm making him carrot cake cupcakes too!  SO much to do!!!  

happy birthday to patreek! 

hope everyone has such an awesomely sweet weekend.  much love and joy to you all!! xxx 

first ride of the summer!

good afternoon!

woohoo!  pat and i are having a happy day today- we went on a nice easy bike ride in the sunshine.  it was so sweet :)

this is my bike june bug ;)

handsome baby patrick :)

isn't my man cute?!  AW!  it's his birthday on saturday too!

yeah!!!!  hope you get a chance to get a little sweaty today in the fresh air and sunlight! 

peace to you out there <3 xoxo

wednesday meditation.


"rejoice with your family in the beautiful land of life!" 
~albert einstein

hello honey bunnies!  i've missed you!

i've been on a small computer hiatus the past few days because i felt like i needed a little break from the net ;).  it was nice; i'm coming back to my blog, to my etsy shop, to purusha with a fresh perspective.  aaaah !

so as i was "away" on monday, i have a little catching up to do with you!  hehe.  monday meditation this week is wednesday meditation ok?!  i'll be back for all my usual daily updates next week, i promise!

this past weekend i went to brattleboro and marlboro, vermont with my mom, her dog hootch, and liam for my great aunt alison's 90th birthday celebration.  it was awesome to catch up with family i haven't seen in years!  i felt surrounded with love and kindness, joy and comfort :).

as soon as we arrived we drank champagne and watched a slide show of old family photos.  my family is beautiful.

then we had a delicious greek dinner! soo tasty!!!!!  we played some games about aunt allie's life and then...

allie blew out her candles and we all welcomed and rejoiced in her 90th year on the earth!

afterwards, i shared in some laughter with my cousins erik, ferne, and alexa; or second cousins (i just call them cousins!).

we realized we're the three granddaughters of each of the three sisters- margaret (alexa's grandmother),  janet (my grandmother), and allie (ferne's grandmother).  special huh?!

the next morning we had an awesome brunch in the johnson's wonderfully warm house!  quiche, omelets, fruit, yogurt, croissants, almond pastries, and tea.  i could get used to this...!

i puttered around the sweet old house and took photos of my family's incredible artwork:

my great aunt allie used to paint a lot!  above is one of her awesome pieces.

another one of allie's works.

and my uncle homer is also an amazing artist!  i love this watercolor.

and this wood carved print by homer.  so so cool.  i love that art runs through my blood!

a portrait of allie holding a bunny!

the next morning i spent some time outside with the dogs enjoying the scenery and the view.  what a peaceful place.

then my mom and i headed down to the lake where i used to swim every summer as a kid.  

i remember this lake and dock being so much bigger than they are! 

while at the lake we ran into my cousin ferne and her sweet dog arlow- so all the doggies got to meet and play!

driving home through the hills of marlboro- gorgeous.

liam didn't want to leave !  hehe and neither did i!  but i'm sure i'll go back soon <3

have a happy day my friends and give someone in your family (or a friend that's like family) a nice big warm hug today.  all you need is love!